When we had decided to move to Collingswood, NJ, I asked God to please provide us a church that had daily Mass and Eucharistic Adoration. (see link below). God blessed us in that, at St. Peter’s Church in Merchantville, NJ, not only can we attend daily Mass before Gary goes to work, but this church also has Eucharistic Adoration around the clock! That’s so much MORE than I had asked for!
St. Peter’s has a special chapel designated just for Eucharistic Adoration and there is someone there (24/7) to spend time alone with Our Lord! I love being there because Jesus draws me into Himself, transforms my thinking and speaks to my heart as I sit there before Him! I get to spend unique time with Him there every single day! See more
This is a blessing to me because it has changed my prayer life for the better! I find myself drawing so much closer to Our Lord because of spending that glorious and reverent hour with Him in the Adoration Chapel. I cannot get enough! What a mystery this is!
Because of my extended time in adoration, I’ve become more sensitive to hearing Christ’s voice in my heart. I’ve asked Him to make me more sensitive to the areas I am lacking in spiritually and to show me what needs to be healed or worked on in my life.
This week I felt pain in my heart as I realized I had saddened Him.
The Sacrament of Reconciliation (Confession) has been a most beautiful and freeing experience for me from the start! There is nothing like it! I desire to go to confession as often as possible, preferably no more than every two weeks. Since coming to Collingswood, with getting settled and other distractions, we have not been to confession at St. Peter’s! It’s been over two months for me since my last confession, and I have never gone that long before! I realized this week that, even if it’s for a sin like being judgmental or preferring to do things my way and not what I hear God asking of me, I never like to go this long.
Just this week it came to our attention that Gary and I needed to confess something as a result of “leaning on our own understanding” instead of seeking God for His direction. Needless to say, we purposed to get to confession yesterday no matter what!
When I entered the confessional booth, I told the priest my name and began my confession. I wanted it to be personal, which is allowed, and I confessed that sin. As the priest explained to me why it was a sin, it occurred to me that I actually should have known that, and it grieved me all the more! Then I realized that the other “minor” issues I needed to confess probably wouldn’t have happened had I recognized the bigger sin as sin at the time!
I had been wondering why, in my morning devotional time, I was becoming more easily distracted and wasn’t as attentive to God’s Voice these days…! Now I know why! As the priest explained it to me, I completely understood and it greatly grieved my heart! As I was given absolution, I tearfully and joyfully finished and left the confessional enveloped in a sense of peace and love coming from Jesus. This brought me to tears of gratitude for His Divine Presence in that confessional booth! I can’t explain it but I know I meet Jesus every time I receive the Sacrament of Reconciliation!
As I sat in church, worshiping Jesus and evaluating what had just happened, I realized that I know I have a long way to go in my walk with my Lord! I am unworthy of so many blessings He has brought my way yet at the same time I am so overwhelmed with the immense love He has for me! This too is a mystery, and such a glorious one at that!
I will make it my priority to get to confession on a more regular basis, that’s for sure! I cannot go without it because it is Jesus Himself who speaks to me through the priest, and there is always freedom and peace as a result!
The beauty of this sacrament is that it creates a deeper desire within me to not repeat any of the sins I confess…and that spurs me on! I don’t want to offend Jesus, Who is all good and deserving of all my love! It seems that, each time I receive the Sacrament of Reconciliation, I am more blessed and have more resolve to please Jesus than in the previous one! Thank You, Lord, for this privilege to come to You in confession!
“May the words of my mouth and the meditation
of my heart be pleasing in Your sight,
Oh Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.”